Midnight story~

fiuh.. finally after such a long time that I've abandoned my so called 'blog', now I can say that blogging also depends on my mood to write something, hais.. i'm not the loyal blogger anyway, so who cares?
hem.. Time flows like hell, now it's getting to the end of semester 2 again, and guess what? yes I am soon going to my 3rd year, omg.. I really still feel like I have just come to NTU and still amazed with the beauty of my campus and its hall of residences, the environment and everything, my orientation and everything I have to go through as a freshman, and now...... I am in my 2nd year going to 3rd year already, but yeah.. half of me is happy though, but the other half is not. Why is that so? Happy because I am going to end my university life, which mostly I spend studying in my tiny room, don't know why. Since I came to study here, I never have even a day to relax ( completely relax I mean, without having to worry about stuffs), such a pity life, huh?
That's why I always get excited when it's holiday, besides that I am free to do whatever I want, I can go back to my home sweet home in Medan and live my carefree life. I really loveeeeeee my house, my bedroom, my mom, daddy, and my little cute sis.
Come back to the topic, studying like hell and still my results from sem to sem are not satisfying, I am deeply upset, but nothing I can do about it except that I have to work harder from time to time, why I cannot achieve the satisfaction that I want considering I have put a lot of effort to do it, that's why I always hesitate to give my 100% effort on things again.
Okay, I hate this kind of life, studying and studying. I need to get out of this tiny room and get some air, get along wif my frens or even my loved one. I just cannot stand being in this little room without someone to talk to, it's as if I am dumb or what..

Okay, why the hell that the other half of me am not happy? simple.. everybody should have thought of it before, we have to face the working life, get married and have children.
Geez, people often say that working is really not a cool thing to do, they would rather prefer to have their school life like forever? But is it that boring??
I also don't know, but still we all have to go through it although we do not like it. That is life, isn't it?
However, getting married and get children is a step that every human being in the world has to go through, right? I also look forward to it so much ;P

Now, before I think too far again, I should stop daydreaming about useless stuffs (but that is what I love to do *stupid*)
Exam Exam Exam!! that is what I have to put in my head.
I always keep motivating myself, even my PC background is the motivation words I have written, it is simply "GANBATTE, MUST FOCUS, SEMANGAT, BE SERIOUS, WORK HARD!" and stuffs.. haha..
sometimes it is effective though, although sometimes I merely look at it and start daydreaming again *sigh*

Okay so from now on must fight till the end! must work hard! I know I have to make my parents proud of me, that's why I always try my best^^

Gotta go, ciaoo~

First writing for New Year 2009

Konnichiwa~ It's been a while since the last time I step on my blog.
Happy New Year yeah! hope I'll be a better me in this year 2009~
Today is my first day starting semester 4 and I've just back to Singapore yesterday. Time flies so fast like usual, u'll never realize that the holiday is over already T.T . But actually for me 1 month holiday is enough(really?? trying to convince myself, haha), because holiday means can sleep like pig o.O, eat like me who ate quite alot(no wonder I have gained my weight to 50kg, need to work out from now on, jog more i guess), and my holiday didn't produce anything beneficial(like usual too T.T), so it's better to have some activities, I kind of like when school starts because I'll busying myself with assignments, tutorials, quizzes, meeting, events and so on. So it's quite fun, haha..

First day - nothing so special, because all lectures are just introduction yet, though there are some subjects that are new to me, and it seems difficult, this semester must study harder than last semester, it's always a tradition of course, to study better and better, haha..
But actually first week is just heating up ourselves first before going too far, haha..
And guess what?? 2 more weeks I'll be going back to Medan again, of course I've to go back. It's Chinese New Year coming already, I'm so excited^o^
But I can only stay back for 5 days since I only have 2 days school-holiday, but I still skip 1 and a half day, haha..

So, I'll have 13 weeks semester and then have my final exam in April, everything just started as New Year has just passed, so must be happy that I'm going 19 soon, oh no! It means that next year I'll be 20 already, head 2 liao T.T
must treasure my teenage more every seconds liao, hahahahaha..

holiday mood.. lalala~~

uupps seems that I've left this blog unwritten for quite some time, hahaha.. ok sorry because I'm quite busy of things these days...
yeah! my favourite part-- it's holiday man! hahaha.. I'm back in Medan- home sweet home- really cannot feel bored at home, lol..
so my exam's finished, and what shud I do in this 1 month holi holiday?? hmm.. maybe just another boring activities u think, like watching movie, read novels, what else ha?
haha.. can't find one useful activities le, haiya.. why I always let this holiday passed without any useful things to do, 很无聊哦 o.O

ok lah whatever... I just want to have fun anyway.. hahahaha.. dunno what I'm thinking leh, just wanna enjoy my life.. lalalalala~~~~

Nah, I've been listening to this song over and over again these days, Proud by DBSK^^.. so touching and especially when they sang this song in their concert in Japan last time, omg! I've watched it over and over again oso, hontoni sugoi ^o^
it is a recommended song, although it's in Japanese but still ok lah, u can find the lyrics and meaning mah.. yeah go go DBSK!!
hope that someday they'll have concert in S'pore coz surely I'll go watch them, hahahahaha.. go go go go DBSK!!!! hiat~~

feeling of disappointment~~

I've just finished my 2 papers yesterday and today morning, yesterday paper was fine I can say. However, today's paper which is stats is just killing me, when I came back hum I just realized that I did wrong in 1 question and it takes many of my marks away ord, OMG!! and oso some questions I'm not sure whether it's right or wrong, haizzz...
Regret,disappointed,sad,feeling down,no mood to study MoM which is my next paper.. all comes to me ord >.<>
My grade for this subject will be really damn 'pretty'...... >.< >.<

However, I've tried not to be in so deep sadness ord now, I want to be strong. I want to do my best for my next next papers. I want to feel optimistic. I want to forget what I did before on stats. I want to have holiday ASAP!!
but there's some1 telling me just now that eat chocolate will make u feel happier. Is is true anyway? hahaha.. then I'll try to eat more chocolate in the future, yeah I love chocolate but have tried not to eat so many because it makes u fat! oh no.. talking about weight, I wanna lose weight again, wanna reduce my fat here and there. ahaha..
Ok but if u feel sad maybe can try eating chocolate, no harm wot. U can feel better after eating choco, hahahaha..

Ok forget about my so called 'despo' things just now.
This afternoon I'm just slacking all the way, watching movie and browsing anywhere I can. hahaha.. I watched 'Paycheck' just now starring Ben Affleck, Arron Eckhart, etc. The film is nice, but not so many action. However, the storyline is really gud. There's a guy(Ben Affleck) who is an engineer and can create lots of things, really creative and smart I can say. He also created a machine which can see the future and even can change the future, so cool right? But how cool it is, it must have destroyable side oso, haha.. Maybe if you want to know more about this film, just watch it. It is fairly recommended. hahaha..

hey, just now I oso just watched DBSK new MV, Wrong Number. very cool ah!! hahaha.. love them all. hope more new MV coming soon^^

Ok I will have my next paper in another 4 days, so keep study hard and reduce playing time and think about stats no more. Going for MoM~~~~~

exam exam n exam T.T

When I am supposed 2 study, I write this blog.. so nice.. ahaha..
finally.. my 1st paper in the day after 2moro, yeah.. my 1st paper is Principle of Economics which is damn hard.. I'm really confused now, aargh..
although I've read it n understand it but when I wan 2 do some question, I cannot write anything out.. so stressed.. haih..
12 - 13 - 18 - 19 - 21 - 24.. yeah.. those are my exam dates.. quite nice actually, I have Probability & Statistics as my 2nd paper, n next is Mechanics of Material, Fluid Mechanics, Soil Mechanics and last one is Computational Method.. hope 2 finish all these papers ASAP, and can get a good mark. YEAH!! ganbatte ne~~

Actually these days I've tried my best to keep study n study, unusual of me.. ahaha..
while I think my roomie which is Chinese, she's damn diligent.. u noe wat, for these few days she has gone out 2 study somewhere which i dunno n dun wan 2 noe.. haha.. n she didn't come back till midnight (it's morning actually), but I dunno wat time she came back coz I've slept at 1 a.m something, n guess what.. she wakes up so early oso n continues study!! imagine wo.. I wonder why they(Chinese) are so diligent one, haiz.. why I can't be just like them.. hahaha.. so stressed lah like that, it's better to take some my mugging time to play, like the say :"Work hard, Play hard"
nah.. ok.. time 2 continue mugging!! yeah! 2 weeks 2 holiday~~ HUM SWIT HUM! I AM COMINGGGG~~~ HAHAHAHAHAHA..

がんばってね！

-Vinvin-^^