Midnight story~

fiuh.. finally after such a long time that I've abandoned my so called 'blog', now I can say that blogging also depends on my mood to write something, hais.. i'm not the loyal blogger anyway, so who cares?
hem.. Time flows like hell, now it's getting to the end of semester 2 again, and guess what? yes I am soon going to my 3rd year, omg.. I really still feel like I have just come to NTU and still amazed with the beauty of my campus and its hall of residences, the environment and everything, my orientation and everything I have to go through as a freshman, and now...... I am in my 2nd year going to 3rd year already, but yeah.. half of me is happy though, but the other half is not. Why is that so? Happy because I am going to end my university life, which mostly I spend studying in my tiny room, don't know why. Since I came to study here, I never have even a day to relax ( completely relax I mean, without having to worry about stuffs), such a pity life, huh?
That's why I always get excited when it's holiday, besides that I am free to do whatever I want, I can go back to my home sweet home in Medan and live my carefree life. I really loveeeeeee my house, my bedroom, my mom, daddy, and my little cute sis.
Come back to the topic, studying like hell and still my results from sem to sem are not satisfying, I am deeply upset, but nothing I can do about it except that I have to work harder from time to time, why I cannot achieve the satisfaction that I want considering I have put a lot of effort to do it, that's why I always hesitate to give my 100% effort on things again.
Okay, I hate this kind of life, studying and studying. I need to get out of this tiny room and get some air, get along wif my frens or even my loved one. I just cannot stand being in this little room without someone to talk to, it's as if I am dumb or what..

Okay, why the hell that the other half of me am not happy? simple.. everybody should have thought of it before, we have to face the working life, get married and have children.
Geez, people often say that working is really not a cool thing to do, they would rather prefer to have their school life like forever? But is it that boring??
I also don't know, but still we all have to go through it although we do not like it. That is life, isn't it?
However, getting married and get children is a step that every human being in the world has to go through, right? I also look forward to it so much ;P

Now, before I think too far again, I should stop daydreaming about useless stuffs (but that is what I love to do *stupid*)
Exam Exam Exam!! that is what I have to put in my head.
I always keep motivating myself, even my PC background is the motivation words I have written, it is simply "GANBATTE, MUST FOCUS, SEMANGAT, BE SERIOUS, WORK HARD!" and stuffs.. haha..
sometimes it is effective though, although sometimes I merely look at it and start daydreaming again *sigh*

Okay so from now on must fight till the end! must work hard! I know I have to make my parents proud of me, that's why I always try my best^^

Gotta go, ciaoo~